Tomorrow marks the end of another summer vacation. It is officially the start of the school year. I am now going to say something that every mom at least thinks once or twice (or if they're crazy like me, obsesses about): I am really excited to send the boys off to school because it means that I will only have two kids at home most of the day. Every year I feel like such a bad mom for saying that, and usually have to preface it by saying that I really love my boys (which should go without saying). This year though, I am determined to drop the guilt.
Of course I love my boys, but sometimes (like at least five times a day) the fighting, whining, and just daily struggle of having four kids at home really wears on me. I totally give props to all the dedicated homeschooling moms out there, but for me my sanity depends on public school. I know I chose to have four (soon to be five) kids, but just as other work-outside-the-home moms get tired of doing their jobs all the time, I also get tired of the full workload of being a SAHM to four kids.
So I'm dropping the guilt.
No more feeling bad for being a little happy to see them go off and get an education. They are learning how to socialize in the "real world" and learning things that they will need to one day make a living and support themselves and their families. Why should I feel guilty about that? So tomorrow as I watch them with their new clothes and backpacks full with school supplies walk out the door, instead of feeling guilty about being relieved to see them go, I will be grateful that they have the opportunity to gain an education and hopefully, finally, lose the mom guilt.
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