Do I have to?

Tomorrow I am supposed to give a talk in church but I REALLY don't want to. Do you ever have things that you know are coming up and you think about them constantly but you DREAD actually sitting down and preparing for them. This is how I feel about tomorrow. Honestly, it's been almost three years since I've spoken in church, and I think I've just forgotten how. A couple of days ago I actually printed out some "research" and last night I read it all, but I still don't know how I'm going to put it together and what exactly I'm going to say. So instead of writing out my talk, I'm blogging. Bad me! I also still have yet to finish preparing my Sunday School lesson. Bad Bad me! I have one student in my Sunday School class who always in his prayers gives thanks for the time and effort I put into preparing my lesson and it almost always makes me feel bad if I feel I haven't given it my all. Talk about a major guilt trip! I'd better get to work!!